life's journey

2008-09-01T13:43:00.003+08:00

Hi Friends,

I have just opened up another blog. Pls view my future entry at this link:

http://www.blessedphoebe.blogspot.com/

Million of thanks to all my friends who have stood by me during my down season!

It's really time to get up and walk again!!! Keep walking!

2008-08-31T03:14:00.002+08:00

God is Awesome! Just had an interview with Pastor Eileen before svc! i'm just so nervous. Having to talk to Pastor seems comfortable but having to answer the questions that Pastor asked seems so stressful. I think the things that i wanted to say doesn't come out from me. I wonder how would Pastor think of me. The most stressful things is i'm being interviewed by 3 persons. haha. One leader just suddenly popped out and ask me big questions. Seems like an oral test for me. hehe. This interview was to allow me to go for a leadership class for children church which is call SWAP Class. I don't know what it means. haha. Really prayed that I will be able to get in as I waited to go for this class since the beginning of this year! It's something that I looked forward to. Having to learn something from Pastor Eileen, my role model! She is very sweet! I like her smile! =) Gonna believe God and trust God and have faith!!!! I just finished my exam and project for this term. Having a one week break finally! Time to charge up my spiritual and physical battery to be use powerfully by God again!

2008-08-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

Happy National Day, my friends!

It's been 2 months since the departure of my best friend!

I have always been keeping her in my mind and heart!

I miss you, Hazel!

This has been the toughest moment that I ever been through!

Coping with the loss, continue working, studying and moving on with Life has been extremely difficult! I have tried. I am tired!

Seriously, I do not know how to move on without God's strength!

God has always been my source of strength!

There's no one else but God!

Knowing that Hazel is in God's hand, has comforted me.

But knowing that our appointment to Taiwan has become my disappointment!

It is my greatest regret! As we planned for the trip since the beginning of the year.

I find it so so so hard to face reality.

The thought of seeing her alive but now gone. I can't feel her, I can't hear from her.

It's really hurts.....................................................................................................................

Trying so hard to focus myself on studies and work and ministry and family.

But still, I can't let go of it. She is my best companion.

Everytime, everything, everywhere, everyday I will think of her.

When I am weak, He is strong! I will get stronger. God, sees me through this SEASON.

You are my HEALER! Thank you Jesus!

2008-06-26T22:57:00.004+08:00

A brand new beginning of my life's journey

June 19- Start afresh in serving God by going down to support Business Breakthrough Group Kids last thurday! totally amazed by how God is using the kids of those business man and woman of God! They ar Rich and Godly Kids!

June 22- Serve God in my playgroup ministry after 2 weeks of break! Feel so charged up by the spirit and anointing of God to do more for Him! really love and miss the kids! Celebrate my first favourite baby in infant care - MADISON's 1st birthday together with other colleagues. Feel rather release emotionally. As it is a joyous occasion to be happy with. Thank God for Madison! She really adds much joy to my down season!

June 23- Started a new study term. Having to cope with load of assignments and projects! Time to sow a seed again and labour for a great harvest! I will work harder and smarter this time! not going to procastinate... Trust God!

I am standing stronger each day by the Grace of God! Thank you JESUS! =)

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

UNFINISHED BUSINESS
Quote - 'You can't always get what you want' - Mick Jagger

We don't live in a perfect world.

Learn to live with imperfect situations, unresolved issues and unfulfilled expectations without losing your great spirit.

There's always something that isn't the way you want it.

Get happy in spite of this.

As you deal with it, stay happy, not upset.

If the unresolved problem gets you, then it's won.

Stay on top even when it's trying to get you down, and you'll win.

This is Christianity at its best.

Staying up in a down situation.

That's leadership.

2008-06-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

Leadership Files by Pastor Phil Pringle

FRIENDS
Quote - 'Special friendships had been welded. Many will last a lifetime.' - Rob Mundle reporting on the Sydney to Hobart Yacht race that claimed 5 lives, and in which only 44 of the 115 strong fleet finished.

Most 'fallen' ministers I've met with said they had no-one to talk to, no trusted friends who would understand their problem.

God says, 'It's not good that man be alone.'

Friends are to laugh with, cry with and do life together with.

Friends are forged in fire.

Shared experience is the basis of relationship.

Be there in their ups, their downs, and friendship forms.

Our destiny is locked into our friendships.

Jonathan was meant to inherit his father Saul's throne, but he prepared his soul friend David for that.

How are your friends?

2008-06-16T23:46:00.004+08:00

I miss Hazel deeply. I was looking through her blog. This is something that I will always keep with me forever! She posted on her blog for me on my 21st birthday,2 Nov 2005!

[I just want to say Happy birthday to my dearest friend, Shu Zhen.
Enjoy your chalet babe! Sorry that I wouldn't be turning up coz it's pretty awkward lah. Hope you like the pressie I gave. Really enjoyed the times we spend together. The aimless shopping that we always tempt each other. The jokes and gossips we shared. The talks from intellectual to pure stupidity like talking about the sound of shit can make us laugh like mad.
Really enjoyed your company and I hope you do too. HAHA!
Friends Forever!
Shall meet up again for our hair session soon.
Best wishes and take great care!]

2008-06-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

WHAT DOES THE BIBLE SAY ABOUT...

GRIEF?

by Betty Miller

Proverbs 15:13-14(Amp):
13 A glad heart makes a cheerful countenance, but by sorrow of heart the spirit is broken.
14 The mind of him who has understanding, seeks knowledge, inquires after and craves it, but the mouths of (self-confident) fools feed on folly.

In these verses in Proverbs we find a comparison between a merry heart and a sorrowful heart. Verse 13 tells us that you can tell the condition of a man's heart by looking at his countenance (his facial appearance). When people are happy, you can tell by the sparkle in their eyes, their smile and their cheerful attitude. When they are older, they will even have what we call "smile wrinkles" instead of the wrinkles caused by frowning. Indeed, facial looks reveal a lot about a person.

You can also read on a person's face when they have sorrow in their heart, especially when you know a person. We have all experienced someone saying to us, when we were troubled about something, "What is wrong? Are you worried about something?" We all have experiences in our lives that cause us to be broken-hearted about an incident. The scripture tells us that if we allow this sorrow of heart to continue, it can break our spirits.

How can we get past heart break over the loss of someone or something? We must give the person or situation to the Lord and ask Him to remove the sorrow and grief from our hearts. We can keep the good memories of a lost loved one, but we must not allow the enemy to torment us with the grief of our loss. God will replace the emptiness we feel from the loss of a mate, a child, a friend, or a home, if we ask Him to do this. Jesus died on the cross, not only to give us eternal life, but He also died to take our grief and sorrows. Jesus Christ, on the cross bore all of our iniquities, pain, sickness and sorrow. Since He took them, we do not have to take these things, but rather receive our salvation, healing, deliverance and peace by faith.

Isaiah 53:4-6:
4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
6 All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.

Proverbs 15:14 tells us that if we have God's understanding, we can ask Him for the knowledge to overcome every trial and problem we face. God is bigger than our grief, sorrow, pain and every problem that any of us could face. We must never blame Him for our troubles, as the devil is the trouble maker, not our Lord. God is there for us, to help us overcome anything the enemy has done, or is trying to do. God is the one that will rescue us and help us in our hour of need. However, we must not be like the fool who feeds on his folly. This is a person who is continually mouthing his troubles and blaming others, including God, for his circumstances. He feeds on self-pity and rehearses his problems to all who will listen. We must give our heartaches and troubles to God and keep a cheerful attitude no matter what is going on in our lives. We need to remember, "this too, shall pass" as God is eternal and has a good plan for our future.

As Christians, death is the last enemy we face, as we have the assurance that we shall see all of our loved ones who have died in Christ once again. The devil may have snatched them off this earth, but because they belong to God, He snatches them from the devil and takes them home with him. We will be reunited with them. That shall happen when we get to Heaven, or when Christ comes again to this earth and brings them with Him at the resurrection. We are not like those who have no hope. In Christ, our future is full of His promises and we are promised victory over death and the grave!

1 Thessalonians 4:13:
13 But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope.
14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him.

1 Corinthians 15:54-55:
54 So when this corruptible shall have put on incorruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory.
55 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

Certainly, grief and sorrow are natural emotions that we all experience when we lose someone or something and it is not wrong to feel it at the time a loss or tragedy occurs. However, it is wrong to embrace these emotions as Christians. Just like it is not wrong to feel fear when we are in danger; however, it is wrong to embrace fear because it will destroy our faith. We must not embrace grief either, as the above scripture tells us to "sorrow not."

I remember a number of years ago, a man came to Bud and me for counseling, as he had no joy in his life. We asked him when he lost his joy and he said it was after the accidental death of his grown son. The son had died in a plane crash. This man had been continually tormented by grief from that time, which had been over two years. We explained to him that tormenting grief was from the devil and he could be free from it. We were shocked at his reaction when we offered to pray for him to be free from this evil spirit. He absolutely refused. The devil had convinced him that if he quit grieving for his son, it meant he no longer loved his son. He was equating the emotion of grief with the emotion of love. He had embraced an additive kind of agony and the devil made him reluctant to let it go. This kind of negative emotion causes men to live in the past and robs them of the present, and future. This man was no longer a good husband to his wife as his life was revolving around a dead son through the grief he refused to let go of.

Many people accept the devil's sorrow and grief tunes by yielding to "singing the blues" or the "crying in your beer" mentality. Many of the songs that are sung in bars and nightclubs are this kind of music. Old melancholy songs about a lost love create a type of emotional sorrow that has an almost intoxicating feeling associated with it. The devil uses old memories to keep people in bondage to the past, even through a hurtful emotional attachment. The Bible tells us to forget those things behind us, and reach forth to the things in front of us in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3:13-14:
13 Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
14 I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

Grief that is not released to God has a deadly hold on many people. They carry this heavy burden that is aching for release. They may find temporary release when someone sympathizes with them or when they cry some tears, but soon this feeling turns into an overwhelming pain of loneliness that is almost unbearable. Grief and sorrow come to hurt us, not help us. We must resist them in the name of Jesus. Jesus does not want us to bear this grief. He bore it on the cross for us. Gladness and joy are our portion, not sorrow and sadness.

Isaiah 53:4:
4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.

Isaiah 51:11:
11 Therefore the redeemed of the LORD shall return, and come with singing unto Zion; and everlasting joy shall be upon their head: they shall obtain gladness and joy; and sorrow and mourning shall flee away.

We must resist sorrow and grief and ask for God's peace and comfort when we face loss and heartache. If we submit unto God and resist the devil, then the tormenting grief and pain caused by the devil, will have to flee.

James 4:7: Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.

Here is a sample prayer you can offer to God:

Father God, Thank You for always being there for me no matter what I face. I know You will never fail me, even in my most intense trials. I have not always understood why I was going through certain things; however, I do not have to understand, because You are God and You are in control, in spite of my lack of understanding. I know that all You require of me is to trust You, and look to You in faith and You will come and save me, and bring me an answer. You always have, and You always will, because you are faithful. You never fail any of us who look to You. I have failed You, Lord, by my doubt and unbelief at times, but You have never failed me. Lord, please remove all the sorrow and grief I feel. Heal this pain I feel in my heart and help me to trust You more. Fill this empty place in my heart with more of Your Spirit. I ask this in the name of the Lord, Jesus Christ. Amen

2008-06-15T21:23:00.019+08:00

2008-06-15T20:06:00.008+08:00

In loving memory of Hazel

My wonderful Friend from 1997 to 2008
we known each other since sec 1.
we were in different class from sec 2 onwards.
but we still meet each other after school.
we used to hang around Junction 8, amk.
She was a beautiful and loving friend.
we used to call each other often, write letters,
make cards for one another.
she used to come to city harvest church for one year.
even after we graduated from secondary school,
we still keep in touch, though we are busy with our stuff.
She was my best shopping kaki, chatting and neoprint buddy!
we always go shopping together. She often give me tips on
beauty products and we even went to same hair salon.
from top to tail. we shared alot of common topic.
last year my birthday, she even went to the extend
to bake cupcakes for me! i'm so touched!
Many many thoughts just came into my mind!
I know I can't probably do all the things together with her again!
Given the 2 appointments that we are supposed to have!
It will never happened ever on earth. But I believe I can meet her in Heaven!

I hope to release my feelings by blogging!
I can't take it any longer. I am trying to be strong!
I might not be having any tears but my heart is still tearing!

My heart hurts when I can't meet Hazel for our last shopping on 8 June,sunday!
My heart hurts when We can't go for Taiwan as planned! She saved and planned alot!
My heart hurts when I see her in ICU fighting with virus!
My heart hurts when I can't do anything for her except praying for a miracle!
My heart hurts when I see her mum breaking down and I can only cry with her!
My heart hurts when I can't hear her voice and see her opening up her eyes!
My heart hurts when I was there in the hospital seeing her last moment!
My heart hurts when I see the virus attacking her whole body in a critical condition.
My heart hurts when I sms her on wed night 4 June, and she replied should be ok, 2.30pm at orchard rite.
My heart hurts when she didn't tell me she is having a fever for few days.
My heart hurts when the doctor didn't know the cause of her death.
My heart hurts when she didn't even know that she is leaving this world.
My heart hurts when I didn't arranged to meet up with her much earlier.
As she already sms me on 16 may, telling me that she had finished her exam, and we could meet up! and I told her if i can meet her after my exam which is 3 June. and we agreed on mtg on 8 June!
My heart hurts when our appointment on 8 June, turned out to be her funeral wake!
My heart hurts when I send her off on her last journey in life!
My heart hurts when I think about her getting her degree and entering into workforce soon.
My heart hurts when I go orchard, remember the places we always go.
My heart hurts when I remember the things we did, the words she said.
My heart hurts when I see the photos i took with her.
My heart hurts when I think about the things that we could not do in future, like seeing each other getting married and having children!
My heart hurts deep deep deep! I'm broken!
I'm allowing God to heal my heart!

Just within a few days, I lost a great and dearly friend!
Life is so fragile, so unpredictable!
Friends, really! We got to live our life with no regret!
Seizing every moments of our life!
Living our life to its fullest!

Dear God,
I lift up Hazel in your hands!
I trust that Jesus will take good care of her!
One day, I will meet her in Heaven and she will
bring me around Heaven!
Thank you for Hazel!
God,I pray for your strength, peace and comfort to
come upon Hazel's mum, dad and bro!
Lord, watch over them in this season!
And God use me to be a pillar for Hazel's mum!
I love you God!
In Jesus' Name
Amen

2008-06-01T00:31:00.005+08:00

Today marks another journey of my ministry this year.
[Jan]-lunch with Pastor Eileen and a talk with my svc Ic(Jo-ann).
[Feb]-overnight prayer mtg with Pastor Eileen.
[Mar]-acting svc IC at expo for a week and JW for 2weeks.
[Apr]-dinner with Children Church Zone supervisor(Joanna and Gloria], leading art&craft discussion with teachers.
[May]-acting svc IC at expo for a week, prayer meeting with Joanna.
This is only the beginning! I'm really stir to do so much more for God. Thank God today Jw svc was good! I love it when the kids sing along with me during praise and worship. I can really sense the atmosphere there in the room. As for the set up, I still prefer expo. I love to have the feeling of many kids together. Watching them grow, really touches my heart. Seeing the kids looking upon me while i tell bible story, really give me the confidence. Indeed it is God who gave the confident. After the playgroup svc, i rush down to expo to have prayer mtg with my children church zone supervisor, joanna and the other ICs and some potential leader. She uses to be my Ic. I was really stir during the mtg as she get us to share about the playgroup's future. Really challenged. I love my ministry. I love the kids more. I love God even more. I believe God will gives us the strategy to work on the svc and the kids and also the parents. my ex cg leader ever told me that if u want to be with eagle, u should hang around with the eagles and not with the turkeys. today i see myself as one of the eagle. while i am slowing stepping into leadership position. i look forward to more session with the eagles so as to soar like them. Look forward to the youth camp next week. I feel pity that i can only make it for the last night. dear
E444, I'm with you in the spirit! especially jovan, really proud of you! God changed your life around. I never imagined that! God is awesome! =p

2008-05-14T22:43:00.006+08:00

I was pretty busy with my project works and assignments for the past few weeks. Today, I have an opportunity to visit my coursemate's centre at Sembawang Presbyterian Church. wow i can say that the centre's environment is so cool and nice. i like! i hope my dream future centre will be something like that. hee. exciting! May is a month that I feel kinda emotional. A lot of separation had and is going to take place in my life. As two of the babies eventually withdraw from our centre and one of my colleague is resigning. i work very closely with her since i first joined the centre. also the other colleague who is my best buddy is been transfered to the other group. so i hardly have chance to talk to her. She is my colleague cum children church friend. I really thank God for her. I feel very much attached to her since the beginning of this year. as we see each other everyday from monday to sunday. can you believe that. hee. and lastly, my real brother is going to move out of our house, as he gotten his new house with his gf. i gotta miss all this people so so much. especially my bro, for all the IT stuff at home, SCV and his car! haha. this is a season that i got to really let go and put my total trust in God! i believe as transition takes place in my life, God will still be here for me and his love is unfailing! I will be stronger! I still remember last year this date, I tender my resignation letter at AIA. It's not an easy decision but i'm glad i make the decision. I am thankful to God for where I am right now! working with the little babies, serving God with my talents and passion and studying a course of my interest, though is tough. BUT GOD is the strength of my heart and portion forever! =)

2008-04-21T23:14:00.006+08:00

One world One Dream
Composed by Wang Lee Hom
For Olympic Beijing 2008

Really nice & inspirational!
enjoy! =)

2008-04-09T22:54:00.001+08:00

Communication is powerful!

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle
People in a dark room want to turn the light on.
They want to see where they can walk.
Communication in an organisation turns the light on for everyone.
People do not function well in the dark.
Absence of communication leaves people in the dark.
Fear, distrust, suspicion, gossip and rumour all fester in this dark.
Trust, faith and security make an organisation healthy.
Communicate with people all the time.
Arrange systems of communications.
Use all the technology available to maintain open lines.
Any military strategist will tell you that an army without communications is a defeated army.
Turn the light on in your families, your workplace, your networks.
Communicate!

2008-04-06T16:42:00.007+08:00

I just wanna say that we served an amazing God. Back to expo to serve today! The numbers of kids that turned up really blow us off! 78 kids! Breaking record ever for sunday playgroup. usually we have the most was 65. With only 5 teachers around today, WE are really depending on the power of God that is working within us. His supernatural strength and grace covers us all. Thank God there's isn't any accident or anything that is happening. But I sort of lost focus as I am too overwhelmed with the numbers of kids coming in and the numbers of auntie and parents around to make our room really crowded. Thank God I learnt. The one thing that I really need to constantly remind myself is I am raising up as a service IC, I got to take ownership and be aware of everything that is happening. Though the responsibility is great, i pray that I am able to contain it in my spirit. yet I do not want to serve to a point that I will be too tired to do anythings else. I want to continue to have the passion for God and for kids. I looked forward for the many more exciting times that God will lead me in my ministry and my walk with him. I just started a new term again, many projects to do. I must really know how to manage my time. Pastor Tan preached that time management is the management of event. Gotta manage my events well. And also to wake up early to pray and plan. I wanna place my day into the hand of God! my walk with God will get even more glorious! =p

2008-03-24T23:04:00.003+08:00

Happy belated easter! hee. My easter was rather different this year! I got called up to stand up for one of e children church Ic for playgroup at Jurong west. As she gotten chickenpox. what a God-appointed opportunity for me. As i just got to stand in for my own playgroup Ic at expo last week. I take this opportunity seriously. I thank God very much that I learned a lot from my IC and senior and God has been speaking to me about my life and ministry. Somehow, God has a great plan instored for me this year. As I was serving at JW on good friday, e friend that I mentioned, he got saved at Expo. God is truly amazing! I believe for greater breakthrough this year! This year is a year of promotion. Not only in my ministry but in my career, spiritual life and relationship with other as well. I do not want to see promotion as something that I can boast about. But I rather be humble and be myself. I may not have reach the level of leadership in my ministry. I am still learning. Now that I am called to be a IC in training. I see it as something that God has given. I will serve the best I can. Indeed details determine destiny. I am seeing something in the realm of spirit. Finally breaking through. Though this is just the stepping stone, it's e first step that I took. I know I will be able to make it through with God! I want to be the kind of leader that God wants me to be. More things are coming! So exciting! =) when I am weak, He is strong! Thank you Jesus for a wonderful easter experience with the kids!

2008-03-13T20:20:00.003+08:00

Hi friends, I got a few good news to share. 1stly, I am given a chance to tell bible story last sunday. I always wanted to do so. It's a good try for the first time, I believe i'll improve on it. This sunday, I gonna oversee the whole playgroup service as my IC is not around. I will take charge and lead the team. I'm so anxious. Thank God! I know I am able to do it in Jesus. I'm really blessed by what Pastor Kong preached last sunday. I am really not a detail person. I feel I lack in having the spirit of excellence. Eversince last sat, "Details Determine Destiny"has been planted into my mind. I keep on meditating on this phrase when I work and study. God is good. I have also done one of my presentation this tues. For the first time ever that the lecturer came to me and say I did a pretty good presentation. I am so happy. Hehe. Also I want to thank God for a friend that I have been reaching out to. He used to critise about my church and about christian. I have been reaching out to him for few years. He always disappoint me when he promise to go church. Indeed God has a plan for everyone. He was facing some problems since the beginning of the year. I try to be there to encourage and advise him and be his friend. I invited him for one of my cg outing. He enjoyed himself. And now he was sharing with me how his life has been changed eversince he came. He will love to hear the word of God. He like my cg members a lot. Though he had yet to receive Christ but I believe he will accept Christ soon! SO Proud of him. God is doing amazing things in my life! Though I feel weak and tired after a day of work and school and those challenge that I have at work, God never fails to love and strengthen me. Thank you, Jesus!

2008-02-17T16:24:00.003+08:00

hi friends,

happy cny! I've been busy working and studying. this year i really set my focus on children all the way. I believe I have started the year right. firstly, meeting with my playgroup ic (Jo-Ann), she shared about the vision that she has for me is to raise me up to be the next ic. I admired her a lot in the way she do things and manage her family, business and ministry. I salute her for that. secondly, having lunch with Pastor Eileen, is a great privilege. thirdly, attending children church vision sharing and overnight prayer meeting yesterday, is rather a breakthrough for me personally. I gonna stretch my faith and strength to attend the prayer meeting after a whole day of work and going for service. Indeed is worth spending time in the presence of God, entering into the holy of holies. His presence is so strong and tangible. this year children church vision is moving ahead! I wanna move ahead with God. Pastor shared that some of us might be afraid of moving forward. I feel that God is speaking right to my heart. I am afraid of the responsibility that I need to take on being a playgroup Ic. but it is the calling of God, I should accept the responsibility with the confidence of God! I know I can do it with the Holy Spirit. the bible says, it not by might nor by the power but is by the Holy Spirit. truly, I can run to God for rest, strength and comfort. Thank you, Lord. It is great going for overnight prayer meeting to pray and trust God that He is going to perform miracles on behalf of all of us.

That's all for now. I shall share again. I gotta finish my school project now n Jesus' name! =)

Pray, Pray, Pray!

2008-01-20T16:32:00.000+08:00

dear friends, it's been a long time since I last updated my blog. I've started school for 2 weeks. It wasn't easy to manage work, studies, church, ministry and family. By the grace and strength of God, I'm able to sustain through this 2 weeks. Here's a important update that I want to remind myself. It probably marks the beginning of my dreams this new year!

I got the privilege to have lunch with my role model-Pastor Eileen today!

This is actually a thanksgiving for all the teachers from both sat and sun expo playgroup teachers. We have our lunch at Macau Express! It has been postponed due to christmas production. It's really my first time having a casual talk with Pastor. Pastor Eileen noticed me and smile then she started asking everyone to intro themselves. And then when we are waiting for our food, Pastor's food and mine and some other's came first. But there's still a few more waiting for their food. Know what, while waiting, I saw pastor taking up her spoon and stir, I thought she was about to start eating. I was hungry and initially wanted to start eating but I told myself, I got to wait for others. While some teachers beside me was telling me to eat, as Pastor has started and some of them have started to eat their dessert. After hearing about it, I feel relieved to see pastor eating, so I said grace and pick up my spoon and begin to eat. Just when I put the spoon into my mouth, Pastor Eileen caught me eating. She pointed at me and said she starting eating. I was so embarrassed. I stop eating and wait for others. Haha. Then after awhile Pastor turn again to look at me and she smiled. And I said Pastor, I am waiting for you to eat. Then she replied, I am waiting for the rest. Hehe. Though I talked to pastor a few times but is about serious stuff in ministry. Thank God for this opportunity! She has shown another side of her to me. I am greatly inspired by looking at her! She was friendly and joking along with us. I remembered the first impression I used to have of her is she looked very fierce. But after all these years in children church, I learned a lot from her and I admired her even more.

The other thing that bring a smile to my face is that my children's church zone supervisor- sis Glordia, she looked at me and said: "we got big plans for you"! I am amazed and at the same time feeling excited about the plans God has for me! And then my Service In-Charge has arranged to meet me up this coming week. I wondered what is it about! Indeed God is about to do something great in my life this year! I'm looking forward to serve Him more confidently!

P.s: Friends, I am having a fever now. pls pray for me! Thank you! I will be strong! I need more rest! God is my healer and my provider!

2008-01-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

3Jan2008Day 9, leave is popping out!

Madison! Cute and chubby girl =D

Keller! Handsome boy =P

2008-01-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

Happy 2008!
1Jan2008
My Christmas present! A small pot and a giant seed with my name on it. I started sowing it on christmas day and on the 1st day of 2008 (day 7), it has grown much!

My nephew, niece and me! Spending the new day out with my family!

2Jan2008Day 8, growing taller day by day! Indeed what I sow, I will reap!

2007-12-18T20:03:00.000+08:00

Hey it's december now. I am busy this whole month. A lot of things happen at work. I learnt to handle and cope well in working relationship with my fellow colleagues. Well, God taught me one thing! That I know it but i never really put it into practice. I thought I can easily forgive but I cant easily forget about things. So God thought me to forget about the incident that my colleagues cause. Is just a simple matter but they make it so big. We didn't talk to one other for about a week. Now, Thank God that everything is alright. We talked and laughed. God is good. I forgive them and I forget about the incident. Though is really hurtful that they put the blame on us when we didn't do anything. It's a long story. Thank God, it's over. There's still sunshine after the rain. hehe.

Last week was our breakaway camp. It was fantastic though I only went for the 2 nights session. God is always faithful. There are a few critical moments in our life that we must seize it. I am excited for christmas! Now is the time for a great harvest! I am excited too for my school starting next month on the 7th. I gonna manage my time well. As I will start work at 7.30am to 4.30pm and follow by my class at 6.30pm to 9.30pm. I only need to study for 3 days a week. I pray for God's leading and guidance. Way to go!

Jingle bell Jingle bell Jingle all the way, Oh what fun is to ride in one horse open sleigh! Hey~!

2007-11-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

My art work at the centre:

DISCIPLINE
Quote - ' You do what you have to do, to do what you want to do.' - Patricia Fripp
The world lies at the feet of the disciplined.
Everyone dreams. But only the disciplined will accomplish theirs.
A dream without disciplines is the pathway to frustration, anger, and deep disappointment.
Even a dream from God has no guarantee it will come to pass.
Success of the dream demands discipline.
Start disciplined, stay disciplined, finish disciplined.
Disciplines are the way of life.
Morals, finances, attitudes, emotions, relationships, work, devotions; all require discipline to be healthy and successful.

Dreams demands discipline so that it will come to past! Haven't been blogging for the past weeks. I am busy with things at the infant centre and church. Thank God for his grace and strength! There are a lot of things to share but I couldn't find time to blog. Praying that God will expand everyday of my time. hee. I went Powerhouse today after so many years. It is really good spending time with God at the powerhouse. I can send his presence so strongly. I really got to discipline myself to go there once every week. Thank God for refreshing and reviving my spirit. I am believing for new things, new beginning and new breakthrough to take place in my life! God is here with me. I do not have to worry or be afraid. 2007 has not been a good year for me. a lot of things happen but God is still here with me. I am glad I make it through with his strength. As i step forward with faith to fulfill my destiny in 2008, I know I can depend on his spirit to lead me on.=p

p.s: one of my favourite baby, fung win's last day in the centre today. I will miss him!

2007-11-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

it's a happy day! My precious boy "Master Ignatius Tan"'s graduation cum concert day and My beloved father's birthday! I am just so proud of my nephew that he is going to primary one next year. i like his performance. i must say he dance so well. he can really shake his butt. haha. my sis, bro-in law, niece, mum, dad and i were so amazed by his dance. he got hidden talent. he is able to remember his dance step and do it better than his classmates. and at the end of the concert, the host asked the representative of each class to stand in front the stage. my nephew is been called out. i feel simply honored for him. it must be that he dance well that the teachers chosen him out of the rest. i am so touched when i see him graduated. i almost teared looking at him. my heart melted. looking at how God has used my nephew in a way. Thank God that he placed my nephew in bethel child development centre that he is able to learn the value of God. I pray that when he grow up, he will not forget about what he has learnt during his early childhood education. oh man, i feel like i am his mum. haha. though i feel i treat him like my son. hee. the concert in a whole was good, i can feel God's presence in the auditorium when the kids are performing. i want my school to be like this next time. it will come to past one day! then i went church for service in the evening. God is so good! God is so good! it is an awesome experience watching PASTOR PHIL, one of my favourite pastor, doing a painting while preaching. i was blowed away by how he paint the painting. look like he is breathing in the breath and anointing of the holy spirit into the paint when he paint. he is so creative! i wish i can have one of his paint in my room next time. =p

2007-11-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

it's a more relaxing day. cos 2 infants was absent today. but i really dislike one of my colleagues. she will always keep complaining to me about other colleagues. and this morning i saw her while walking to school. cos both of us work same timing today. then she complained about boss. early in the morning. i was like. there she goes again. haha. but i keep telling myself, i got to love her but yet i will not gossip together with her. i try to listen and not comment much. hehe. today cg was good. overcoming stress! yea. got to give all our stress to christ! i miss my mum, she went thailand for a week. she will be back tonight. i want to see her soon. haha. i have never miss my mum so much before! =p

*look at Jesus, look at what he is like, look at what he does, listen to what he says and follow him closely wherever he goes, ALL THE WAY!

2007-11-15T20:37:00.000+08:00

hellooo. i hope to blog something everyday. here's the things i do today! i bathed 5 infants all at one go. My first time bathing so many infants a day. I love bathing babies. Cos I can dress them up and make them smell nice. hehe. I have a male infant "Keller Choo" who is 4 months old, his hair is super long and standing up. I dislike seeing his hair standing up so I will take his brush and comb it down. He look more handsome with his hair down. I will laugh non-stop after combing his hair. Cos he simply look cute and funny. haha. it's a way to entertain myself at work. actually there's a lot of interesting things happening in school. i should blog and share wif u all regularly. And today one of my favourite infant "Liew Jun Lei" (first baby i bathed), he transfered to another class cos he is already 10months old. I miss him. Before I knock off from work, I went to look for him, he crawl over to me and he smile. Oh man. So sweet. Hehe. I have 6 infants under my care now. I share more about them soon. =p

2007-11-14T19:26:00.000+08:00

Good news~! I went to submit my application form for pre-school education in teaching to Advent Links-Sauc Education Center for Children and Family Studies on monday. Guess what! I received the letter of acceptance today! I am so happy! Cos I have been looking for a suitable school with flexible timing so that it wouldn't crash with cg, svc, playgp and oso SOT next year. God is awesome! This is just the beginning. I gonna start my 2 years part-time course on Jan 7, 2008. I have applied through NTUC funding. I really pray that NTUC will approved my request so that I only need to pay 20% of my school fees! Hooray! God has a great plan for me! There's more to update when I start my course! Thank God once again! =p

2007-11-13T21:07:00.000+08:00

hey hey! like my new blogskin? hehe. i just like to have a new change. i hope to update new things too. it's already mid november. thank God for sustaining me!

Do you have faith? Have it to yourself before God. Happy is he who does not condemn himself in what he approves. rom 14:22

2007-11-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

MOTIVATIONS
Quote - ' Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit' - Phil 2:3
What we act on we strengthen.

If we are angry and we act on it we strengthen anger.
If we are proud and act on it we strengthen presumption and arrogance.
If we are tempted to sin and we act on it, we strengthen our weakness to resist temptation.
If we are anxious and we allow it to drive us to action, we strengthen worry.
However, if we resist temptation we strengthen our will.
Our will is like a muscle.
Every time we make a decision it is like lifting a weight.
We strengthen the muscle of our will.
When we control our temper we strengthen self-control.
When we refuse anxiety and rather trust God speaking out His promises, we strengthen faith instead of doubt.

2007-11-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

Thank God! It's my birthday! Oh man. I can't believe that I am ** now. haha. How i wish time will stay with me. Hehe. Indeed God is great! I have a good time working today! Though is a normal working day but I feel happier than usual. I am super touched is when the teachers played the birthday song for me and they sing for me! But my children don't know how to sing but they clap and dance with the music. I am thankful for them already! so sweet of them! And ya of cos,my beloved cg member celebrated for me! Though no surprises. Haha. But still, I appreciate everyone of them! Thank you all! Thank you johnny(xue le) for joining us for cg today! you make my day more special! hee.

2007-11-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

MODELLING
Quote - ' That which we are, we are all the while teaching, not voluntarily, but involuntarily.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson

What we say and what we do must agree.
Our people will do what we do more than what we say.
What walks in fathers runs in children.
The way we handle our people is the way they will handle others.
What we do to our people is what they will do to others.
Our actions will always be more powerful than our words.
People accuse or excuse themselves on the actions of their leaders.
Our lives are the most powerful message we will ever preach.
People ask themselves, 'What would (that person) do in this situation?'
And thus they get counsel from knowing the life of their leader

Reflection: I feel having the best model in life is so powerful and important. Having a role model to follow from and be like them is truly inspiring. My greatest role model in life is Pastor Kong and Sun. They are really the man and women of God. Everything that they do, really brings much honor to God. I really admire them a lot. The other role model in life is Wang Lee Hom. His passion for music has inspired me tremendously. I enjoy his music very much. And of cos all the leaders whom God has placed in my christian walk, they have lead me beyond where I should be. I thank God for every leaders He has placed in my life. I like Pastor Phil, always encourage by his messages! And the most important role model of my life should be my parents, I love them!

2007-10-29T21:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a super sunday! Serving in playgroup in the morning, follow by attending church-wide prayer meeting and then serving support for children church again for annual general meeting. Thank God for giving me the ability to listen. hehe. Some of my ministry members share their problems with me. I am blessed to have hear their story. I learned from their experience and at the same times, i can be an encourager to them. Yea. Thank God I am on leave today! I am able to sleep more. Thank God for giving me rest and strength. Actually the purpose of my leave today is to spend more time with my family. We haven't been going out for the longest time. And most importantly is to celebrate my nephew's birthday which is on 27Oct,sat. He is now 6years old. He is really growing up! I take care of him while he is still a baby. He is really my inspiration that started my passion in loving kids and a dream of opening a pre-school one day! Ya, We went to the wild wild wet. We have fun. I love my Ignatius! This week is going to be a great week! Building fund weekend!! Getting ready for what God has instored! I really want to prepare my heart to give to God. I believe for greater breakthrough in my life, family, career, finances and many other things! I miss the babies in school! Going back to work tomorrow. Gotta be a STAR THROWER! =p

2007-10-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

DOING
Quote - ' For with God nothing is impossible' - Luke 1:37

If you only do what you can do then you're only ever going to do what you can do!
But, if you start to do what you cannot do, you'll find you can do what you cannot do.
And what you absolutely cannot do, God will do, or a team of incredible poeple will, who are attracted to the person attempting to do what they cannot do.
Don't imagine God will ask you to do what you can do!
He asks you to do what you can't do.
Then you'll need Him to do it!
But you're the one who starts the impossible dream.
No-one, not even God, gets inpsired by the mediocre.
Attempt the impossible, ignore the critics, attract the best, accomplish the unbelievable!

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle.

P.s: Do Something! All things are possible. There's no limit!

2007-10-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

LISTS
Quote - ' Write the vision, make it plain....' Habakkuk 2:2

Understand the power of a list.

Write down lists regarding everything you lead and manage.
Write lists of those things you need to do, then do them, one by one.
Write down the list of follow-up things you need to do.
Put the most important at the top.
Do first things first, last things last.
Write down your vision list - for this year, for the next 10 years, for your life.
Write down your goals for today, this week, this year.
Write down your plans and strategies.
Tick them off as you do them.
Simple, but amazingly powerful!

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

2007-10-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

MOTIVATION
Quote - ' People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing; that's why we recommend it daily.' - Zig Ziglar

Getting motivated is essential.
From the inside, the outside, from wherever.
'Why sit here till we die', say the four lepers in the Biblical record as they sit outside the besieged city of Samaria.
If we sit forever, we will sit till we die.
Being motivated is not just being inspired though.
Motivation goes to work.
If motivation doesn't result in action it is futile.
Embrace work as your best friend.
As you go to work the motivation increases.
Accept work as your life. Accept life as work.
Not obsessive work without rest; not activity without productivity, but work that is paced, purposeful and productive.
The dreams of a lazy man will kill him.
Renounce laziness; embrace industry. Go for it!
Do something!

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

I am always inspired by those words Pastor Phil shared in Leadership files. His words really speak to me personally. Today while I was on my way to work, God spoke about Feeding and Clothing the little ones under my care. God reminded me of the verses in Matthew 25:31-46:
31 “When the Son of Man comes in His glory, and all the holy[c] angels with Him, then He will sit on the throne of His glory. 32 All the nations will be gathered before Him, and He will separate them one from another, as a shepherd divides his sheep from the goats. 33 And He will set the sheep on His right hand, but the goats on the left. 34 Then the King will say to those on His right hand, ‘Come, you blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: 35 for I was hungry and you gave Me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in; 36 I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me.’
37 “Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give You drink? 38 When did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and clothe You? 39 Or when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’ 40 And the King will answer and say to them, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me.’ 41 “Then He will also say to those on the left hand, ‘Depart from Me, you cursed, into the everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels: 42 for I was hungry and you gave Me no food; I was thirsty and you gave Me no drink; 43 I was a stranger and you did not take Me in, naked and you did not clothe Me, sick and in prison and you did not visit Me.’
44 “Then they also will answer Him,[d] saying, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to You?’ 45 Then He will answer them, saying, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to Me.’ 46 And these will go away into everlasting punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”

Pastor Kong shared about this during last weekend service. Indeed I am called to feed and clothe the little ones. I am not just going to work to earn a living. But I am called to a mission. That is to feed and clothe the little children. I am more motivated. I gonna embrace work as my best friend. Therefore I got to embrace the mission I have, to feed and clothe the little ones! Thank God for placing me right now in the infant care. Things doesn't seem to be right from the start in my perspective. But I am now looking at it in God's perspective! Whatever things God does, there must be a reason! I am glad that I obey God! There are more things that God has prepared and installed for me. I was really jumping with joy when Pastor Kong announced that we gonna open a pre-school and kindergarten in church. When I was thinking of working in a pre-school center in singapore churches and wonder how come there wasn't one in our church. My dream come true. God's timing is always right! God will make a way when there is no way! I am just so excited. I will look forward to it next year. Wishing that Sis Ting or Pastor Eileen can be my boss. Haha. In the meanwhile, I got to focus on the infant and try to learn the best I can from my fellow colleagues and my boss. Hee. God is GOOD!!!!

2007-10-03T20:17:00.000+08:00

BE BRIGHT
Quote - ' Arise, shine; for your light has come! And the glory of the LORD is risen upon you.' - Isaiah 60:1

Be bright when you meet people.
It may be the only time you ever meet that person.
Make people feel great.
What an incredible opportunity we have every time we meet someone.
Be sunlight to them.
You will affect their whole day.
They will remember you as a bright, encouraging, positive person.
They will carry a good report about you everywhere.

Leadership file by Pastor Phil Pringle.

I am so inspired by what Pastor Phil shared here. It is true sometimes that we only meet that person for once. Thus we got to make people feel great whenever we meet different people. Smile and be happy my friends! It just take a little smile. =p

2007-10-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Children's Day!
There's no holiday today! Haha. My school holds a concert today for all the children from infants to toddlers to Nursery and to Kindergarten. It's such a joy to see the children dancing along to the music. Especially my kids, i'm so proud of Jaeger. He look like a young professional dancer. He can dance pretty well. All the teachers, parents and the children enjoyed the concert. I like concert! I do wish to hold concerts for my children in the future when I have my own school. Hehe.

Jaeger! He is so lovable. =p

Yi Hui and Jaeger. So sweet. Hehe.

2007-09-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

Work has been tiring. I been working extra one hour or half an hour almost everyday for the past 2 weeks, due to the hand foot mouth disease found in 2 of our children. Thank God they are okie and healthy now! Thank God for substaining me through the week! His grace is sufficient for me! =p

1Peter 5:7
Cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you!

Crown specially made for birthday girl-Min Han 2Oct and birthday boy-Ethan 10Oct. They gonna celebrate their first birthday next week. Looking forward to the party!

2007-09-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

My personality type:

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver

You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.
A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.
You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.
You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.

In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding.
You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner.

At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people.
You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's Your Personality Type?

2007-09-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

My favourite boy (nephew) has grown up already. He is going primary one next year. Time really flies fast! He came to visit us today. It's been one month since I last saw him. Look at the handsome boy. hee.

2007-09-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

My work has been good. I love going to work more now. Hehe. Perhaps I get used to the environment and it been an enjoyable time spend with the kids. Initially I was attached to kids aged 7months to 18months, but my boss(principal) just changed me over to 2months to 7months without noticing me earlier on. That day when I reach the center, she told me that I will stay at the younger age group side. She didn't give me time to prepare my heart. My heart is just so unwilling when she wanted me to take care of the babies. Cos I just get familiar to all the kids and I got to start all over again with the other group. Furthermore, I like kids who can response. It is really a test. Deep down my heart, I was crying out to God. I think I am too comfortable at where I am that I don't want to move on. I was afraid that I can't handle the babies. Still, I obey. I follow what my boss instructed me to do. I learnt and I am really happy taking care the babies. Hehe. They are so adorable and innocent. One thing good is that they don't run around. And of cos I love the older age group, I will still get to play with them whenever the teachers need my help to look after them. Indeed God has greater plan for me. The colleague that I am working with in the same group, she is very nice, I thank God for her. Though she is abt 60 yr old, she is hip! Hee. Take a look at my latest art work below (lantern with the babies' foot print on it). My boss praise me for it. She like it! Hehe. God is good!

2007-09-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

HEAD DOWN, STRAIGHT AHEAD
Quote - ' To do two things at once is to do neither.' - Publilius Syrus

Head Down, Straight Ahead.
'Head down' means I'm unbothered by what the others are doing.
It means I'm personally doing the best I can on my pathway.
It means I'm not anxious about what others are thinking.
It means I'm pre-occupied with what I'm doing not what others are doing.
'Straight ahead' means I stick to my course.
I don't keep changing when it doesn't work the way like I thought it would.
I remain undistracted from tempting turn offs in the road.
Head Down, Straight Ahead!
Stick to the plan.

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

2007-09-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

I got a special encounter with Nick Vujicic last saturday. It's my first time meeting someone who has no arms and legs. I went to take photo with him together with my cg members. And he talked to me and prayed a short prayer for me. I am just so moved, almost wanted to cry. I don't remember what he prayed. Hehe. It is totally incredible to see him smile so brightly. I am so touched by how God can use him and how courageous he is to share his life experience. Having born without limbs. It is an unbelievable story. I just can't imagine myself without any parts of my body. How can I eat, write, work without any hands and how much more without legs. There are a lot of limitation. But Nick is so brave. He can swims with his little foot and he loves fishing and playing soccer. He is amazing! I will never forget the moment that he prayed for me. I will be reminded of God's love and mercy towards him and I will be strong! If God can use him, God can use me too and God can use you as well! Thank you Nick Vujicic for stepping out!

2007-09-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

Thank God for "Living Out Loud" event yesterday. I am tremendously blessed by it. I am just so encourage when Pastor audrey shared the message about DREAM. The night before I am just thinking about my dream. Wondering when will my dream come to past. I thought to myself I am bored with my life now. It is just so routine. Though I love it. As Pastor was sharing Dream is a substance for life great achievement. Great thing come from small beginning. Yes. I may be starting small in my dream today. One day my dream will grow bigger. Dream develops us. I want to be those with God's dream. Indeed who we are today is a result of our dream yesterday. Where I am right now is because I dreamt last year that I will be a teacher. I am not exactly at my dream. I dream of opening a pre-school in 10years' time which is in 2017. I can't see it now but in I can see it through the eyes of God. I got to live everyday of my day with a dream. I dream of being a teacher last year and I became teacher this year. So next year I dream of going SOT, I will definitely go next year! JOO JOO! You are my example! You go through it despite of your circumstances. I am not going to any Dream-busters (friend, fatigue, failure and fear) to stop me from reaching my dreams!! I will care less and fear not! God is going to take care of me and every other thing is gonna be alright! You give me the courage to take the first step to SOT! Thanks! Love you! I gonna go in 2008! It's not going to be easy but I believe in my Father God. Let's make a difference! =p

2007-09-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

It's OK by Delirious

2007-09-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

THE GOLDEN RULE
Quote - ' You've helped me become a more caring person McWhater, but now i don't need you anymore. - Cartoon, "Across the Board" April 1996

Put yourself in other people's shoes.
What is it like to deal with you?
Would you come back?
Would you enjoy being the other person in your world?
Would you go to you church? Why?
Would you buy your product? Why?
Would you read your book? Why?
Would you enjoy being your wife? Husband? Your kids? Your friends?

Reflection: sometimes I really wonder why and i will often question myself "would I"... Life is really about growing up, learning, falling and reaching for our dreams. Ultimately we aim to live the dream and leave a legacy behind for people to remember. There are just so much I got to do and I don't know how to. I just learned that I got to love God and people then everything else gonna be alright. It is not easy but God is able! Seeing me through, walking beside me, guiding me along the way. I am living my life for a purpose greater than myself. There is no greater reward and no higher calling than living it for God. I wanna live every moment, every day, every hour, every minute, every second count for God and seize every opportunity I have each day!

2007-09-01T10:39:00.000+08:00

It's my first time celebrating Teacher's day as a career. I celebrated Teacher's day as a ministry in the past few years. But it's truly great to be called out to be a Teacher. Hehe. I am so blessed. Yesterday, we have a Teacher's day retreat to Batam for one day tour. I have an enjoyable time getting to know my colleagues more. They really take good care of me.
me,Teacher Mabel,Teacher Stephanie,Teacher Jenny,Teacher Chia,Teacher Nabishah

Teacher's day gift (towel) from Ethan's parent

2007-09-01T10:19:00.000+08:00

My drawings:

2007-08-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

my dearest babies (Karin 14mths, Nelly 16mths, Alphanie 12mths, Navin 16mths and Jaeger 13mths) =p
my latest art work to paste on the bedroom of the wall for the babies.

2007-08-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

I am lost without your touch.
I want to come back into your presence.
I want to find the way to your heart.
Forever I will be in your presence.
Forever I will seek your heart.
Give me a vision and provision.
Strengthen me, empower me.

I longed for your touch.
Bring me back into your presence.
Bring me near to your heart.
Forever I will be in your presence.
Forever I will seek your heart.
Give me a dream and destiny.
Use me, mould me.

-zhen-

2007-08-19T20:42:00.000+08:00

PATIENCE
Quote - ' Adopt the pace of nature, her secret is patience.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Patience is strength of Spirit. She is the measure of our capacity.
Short spirit, short patience, long spirit, long patience.
Patience bears heavy loads with a happy attitude, without complaining.
Patience is something I decide to receive, to embrace.
Say, 'I decide to be patient. I recieve patience now.'
Patience is nourished through trial, strengthened through pressure.
Whatever you are facing right now, it is increasing your patience.
This is turn increases your capacity.
Increased capacity increases your success.
Be patient, it will 'surely come to pass

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

2007-08-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

I want to thank God for my kids! I simply love love love them every much! I got a hug from "leroy" unexpectantly yesterday. I was standing up and he was trying to hug my leg when i wasn't realizing that he was just infront of me. That was sweet. And this morning while i was doing attendance outside the conference room. "Praiselyn", one of my kids in jurong west. She graduated from 2-3 years. She is in 3-6 years children church now. She shouted "hello teacher" when she came in from the back door. I am super touched. She still remember me. And after the service today, "Ian". He is the most chubby boy. He hugged and kissed me when he left. And of cos I love every other kids too. Pastor Joyce Meyer was preaching about being passionate at what you are doing. I tell myself I got to be more passionate as I received the kids this morning! So I greeted every kids with joy in my heart. I was doing attendance alone today. I really stretch my capacity by the strength of God. usually, I use to give every kids 1 smiley face chop on one hand, but today I give 2 smiley face chop on both hand. haha. Can see how passionate I was! hehe. I really try my best to rememeber every name. That brings a smile to every parents when I remember their child's name and there was good. Cause the parents will feel more safe putting their children in our hand. haha. There were 65 kids today. And we only have 6 helpers! Praise the Lord for his strength and protection! I like to see the smile on every child who came. Seeing them growing up is also a joy. This is my calling! I thank God! I want to seize every opportunities that God send me. Pastor Joyce Meyer inspired me a lot. Let's not focus on the past or future, but on the now! Focus on today! I want to be set apart right to the very heart. I want to love God wholeheartedly and love people fervently. Loving people wasn't easy. But I can love people with the love of God. I love my God, I love my family, I love my kids in school and in church! My friends, enjoy life to its fullest, love everybody to the best ability you can! Live a wonderfully life! =p

2007-08-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was great! I thought I was supposed to meet only 3 or 4 secondary school friends. But I saw a lot of old friends when I reached the meeting place. There were some close and some not so close friends. So happy to see them after graduated from school for so many years. God is good! One thing that amazed me was that some of us were in different classes or group in school. We aren't that close in the past. It was indeed a surprise school gathering. Totally unexpected! Thanks all my friends for making the effort to show up. Hehe. Though it was just a short gathering but the kind of feeling was great. We all lead different life after we parted. But it seems that there is a SIM revival whereby most of them are studying in SIM now. Hehe. There's gonna be more! Making a difference in the lives of other!

2007-08-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

Thank God God God! for Singapore! The place I called Home. Praise the Lord that I got a chance to go for this year NDP at the very last min! Thanks Haze for the ticket! and Linda for the great company. We really enjoyed ourselves a lot. It is really an incredible sight to behold at the marina bay floating stage. The scenery is awesome! You can see the skyline of singapore including the marketplace, the merlion, the ferris wheel and esplanade and etc. I simply love it! It is really a great joy that God allows me to celebrate the nation 42 birthday. I experience the spirit of being a true singaporean. Hee. God is really using our country, our people in many great and powerful ways! Way to go! Enjoy the pictures!!

2007-08-09T10:27:00.000+08:00

1Thank God! I finally meet up with my dearest W171 yesterday for a dinner. It was great seeing jasmine, jonathan, marielle. I miss them so much. And grace, jieqi, i miss you guys too. not forgetting chris, joo. i love you guys a lot. God is good! p.s: mel, gonna miss you! all the best!

Here's the leadership files from Pastor Phil which I feel very encouraging. Thank you W171 for always looking upon me as the best encourager. I am not the best encourager but He is. You guys are the one that have given me great encouragement. Thank you! And for all my precious E444 and all my dear friends, be encourage! Believe in yourself! It just takes a little bit of your time and your words to touch lives. Be blessed! =)

ENCOURAGEMENT

Quote - ' I firmly believe my job is to walk around with a can of water in one hand and a can of fertiliser in the other, and to make things flourish.' - Jack Welch, CEO General Electric

The worst enemy a leader faces is discouragement.
Beat it!
Leadership without courage is no leadership at all.
People rally to the brave.
They will celebrate your courageous, risk - taking victory!
If there is no one encouraging you, encourage yourself!
Tell yourself today is your day.
Go on. Say it!
"Today will be fantastic!"
You're full of courage.
You're unstoppable!

2007-08-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was amazing! Festival of praise! I enjoy the sessions worshipping God with my favourite christian band - delirious?. and Don moen. He played good piano and violin. I simply love guys playing violin. hehe. I am super blessed with the message that Pastor Phil Pringle preached on friday and saturday night. He shared that God will meet with him who rejoice! I like the way pastor illustrated the story of his children to the story of us and God. And thanksgiving is the air-conditioner of the soul. We should always give thanks and praise to God. The presence of God should live in us. And the 2nd night He preached about Mary and Martha. Again, he amazed the crowd with the story. Hehe. There is a statement that touches my heart a lot - whatever you are facing right now is for the glory of God and not for distraction. I always think that there are so much distraction in my life. I totally agreed with pastor. It is not for distraction but for the glory of God. In the midst of trial, we grow closer to God. Thank God for the wonderful 2 nights which I meet the delirious band members on the 2nd night for autograph of their latest book - i could sing of your love forever. This is probably the best song i like and there are plenty of memories behind this song. And there I was queueing up alone to meet them face to face again. I like Jon, the bassist. He is so friendly and gentleman. Hehe. As for martin, he seem a bit tired. I just love their courage to bring their dream to the world to change the lives of many. I am so inspired by their love for God and how they want to make history in the world today. God is truly using them mightly and powerfully. As for the 3rd night of FOP, I went to serve in the children church in one of the conference room at SIS. God tested me again. I am given a challenging task. Haha. One of the mother appointed me to personally look after her son. She remembered me. I was surprised. Her son's name is andre. And his husband was the one who shared testimony some months ago about being one of the important person next to our president. Haha. Of cos it is nothing to do with his dad, but the son. I have to fed him dinner with one container of bee hoon soup. Though andre attended my sunday playgroup service but he was not familiar with me. I tried to fed him in the beginning but he cried and struggled. He don't seem to like me. So another teacher came to calm him down. Then I tried to win him over by playing with him. I am just so happy that he can accept me awhile later. So I bring out the container and try feeding him again. This time round, he is obedient and he finished the beehoon soup. I tried all ways to bring out his toys to distract him so that he will eat. I am just proud of myself that I have completed the challenging task. Hehe. At least, I can report to his mum that he finished his meal. Haha. God. I just love kids. Babies and small kids, not big kids. haha. I enjoyed myself so much at the infant care. I begin to love everyone of them more each day. They are just so lovable. Except for the crying part. Haha. I am still praying to start school soon. Oh God will make a way where there seem to be no way. He works in way we cannot see! I trust God wholeheartly! My future gonna be good. Though I can't see it right now, I trust him. He is preparing the way for me! =)

2007-07-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a blessed sunday! In the morning, I was blessed with a chicken pie by Lishan (sec sch cum church friend) and then Colin (ex cg member) came to give me a bottle of fruit plus as promised. (there is a sowing and reaping principle behind it) and then my playgroup ic buy us donut and chicken pie for our lunch. I am just so blessed. Thank you God! =) The bottle of sweets that I will probably take months to finish up. And I want to say Ethan John (Pastor Derek's son) He is super smart. He saw me keeping the bottle of sweet and he tell another teacher that he saw sweets over at the table. Haha. and asked the teacher to take it for him. Haha. Thanks Colin for keeping the promise and going the extra mile to look for it! He sowed a sweet to me then he reaped back a packet of sweet and now he sowed a bottle to me. What's next?

2007-07-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

CONFIDENCE

Quote - 'But without faith it is impossible to please Him.' - Hebrews 11:6

Faith pleases God!

Sincerity is a weak position from which to live life and attempt to please God.

We may think sincerity pleases God however it is actually bold, confident faith that gains His favour.

Be sincere but don't think your life will work because you're sincere.

Sure, you're sincere, but does it work?

Sure, your philosophy is such and such, but does it accomplish your desired results?

Sincerity must walk with confidence.

Be bold, be confident.

Go the bold!

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

2007-07-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

Colouring from my precious nephew Ignatius. I was asking him for help to colour the pictures to show my babies. But I think he is too creative. His soldier is too colourful. So I decided to keep it for myself after he finished with it. And I requested him to write down his name and to me and the date on it. haha. Crazy aunt rite? Simply love him. Hee. He just do so as i requested. So happy. Looking at him, brighten up my day. He is my treasure!

This was done by my dearest niece Yolanda. She did a better job than the brother. haha. She is in primary 2 now. She has grown so much. love her much too. They are a blessing to me.

This is my master piece. haha. I can't draw. I can only colour. How I wish I could draw. I try but I fail. hee. I enjoy doing art and craft a lot. It's fun! Thank God for the chance. I am slowly getting use to my work and the babies and the teachers (there are politics too)! I enjoy but is tiring. I pray that God will multiply my time and strengthen me! Imagine the work I have in school and I have to do the art for homework to display in school. hee. But no worries. With God all things are possible =)

2007-07-21T13:23:00.000+08:00

Change the world, Change me!

2007-07-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

Elliott-my fav boy!(going back to spain soon as his dad is working there.gonna miss him)

Aren't they cute? Ethan, Min Han and Navin.

The 2nd week of my job is better. Starting to adjust myself to the work and adapt the environment. But I feel rather weak, i don't know is it because I can't get use to the vegetarian meal at the school during lunch. I thought I could save money and don't need to think so much about what to eat. That causes my body to react and have diarrhoea and I feel like vomiting sometimes. The other reason is also due to the boo boo of my babies when i need to do some cleaning up for them. Haha. God, I prayed for a strong health! I will prosper in my soul and my body! Overall, I enjoyed. I like to do art work with them the most. Perhaps is the experiences I have gained in Children Church. The teachers there quite like my creativity. Thank God for that! Something I can give glory to him in the marketplace! Hehe. I am still mastering the skill to put the babies to bed, feed them, bath and change diapers for them. These are the most important skills that I can acquire only by doing it. I am grateful I got the chance to do so. Preparing myself! Haha.

2007-07-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

Job 23: 10-14
But He knows the way that I take; when he tested me, I shall come forth as gold. My foot has held fast to His steps; I have kept His way and not turned aside. I have not departed from the commandment of His lips; I have treasured the words of His mouth more than my necessary food. But He is unique, and who can make Him change? And whatever His soul desires, that He does. For He performs what is appointed for me, And many such things are with Him.

2007-07-11T19:40:00.000+08:00

CONTACT

Quote - ' We know that communication is a problem, but the company is not going to discuss it with the employees." - (Switching supervisor, AT&T Long Lines Division)

Let your fingers do the walking.

Use the phone.

Leave messages on answering machines.

Love the phone.

Don't hate the phone it's one of your most incredible tools.

Contact is the essence of your network.

Contact leads to communication.

Communication leads to connection.

Connection leads to destiny.

Contact all the people in your relational world regularly.

Contact, contact, contact.

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle.

Reflection: Totally agreed with Pastor Phil, I used to dislike talking on phone. But seriously a phone call really means alot. I received a call from my Children church IC after posting this. I feel i should really shared how much she impacted me. A phone call really connect people. She take her time off to call and concern about me and my work. I wanted to sms her and let her know that my work was good and everything is fine. And she called me first despite of her busyness. I really appreciate her a lot. When she shared with me that her son is having fever. I feel even touched. Her son is sick and she still go an extra mile to call me. No words can express how I feel for her. A great leader indeed! She is really one of the best leader I see! I thank God for her! Before my IC call, I call a friend who need a listening ear. She pours out to me all her fear, worries, troubles. I tried to console her but she still feel quite down. I hope by talking and lending her a listening ear and some sound advice. Hope she will be able to solve out her problems and move on in life! Contact is really a powerful source to touch lives! Though right now I feel I'm still a toddler taking his first steps. The occasional stumble is inevitable. But I will stand up. I must stand up. And continue.

2007-07-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

First day of work in childcare centre! God is amazing! The first kid I saw when I step into the centre is SEBASTIAN's Didi. I am so surprise to see him. Haha. I go to him and ask if he remember me. Hehe. Do you know that day I went to their great grandmother's wake, I go down to the centre for interview. It is just so unbelievable! That day at the wake I wanted to carry him and I try all ways to bring him over. I showed him a photo of chip on my phone and tell him I will buy for him if he will to allow me to carry. Haha. And he actually believe and allow me to carry. I promise him I will buy the soft toys for me but I thought to myself,"am I really going to buy for him." Hehe. Until I saw him this morning, I really got to stay to my word and buy for him. Haha. Though I wasn't attached to his age group. He actually remember me when I show him the photo that me and kristin took with him. He was calling out Jie Jie and turn to his friends and called me Jie Jie. He is so cute. Later on the teacher bring me to the infant care a few blocks away. God, help me! I am not really trained to handle the baby before. I only teach children age 2-3 years old in children church. I am more familiar to handle the age group. As they are able to response to me and talk to me. Whereas right now I ought to take care of the baby from 7-13months. They are pretty small, they can't really understand and talk. And most of the time I have to play with them and watching over them. I got to feed them almost every moment. Haha. They are so blessed. They are given cereal in the morning, porridge for lunch, fruits for snack and milk at the end of the day. Imagine those babies crying. At first it seem okie. But I am quite exhausted hearing so many babies crying at the same time. I haven start to bath them and change diaper for them yet. I feel like I am more like a babysitter now than a teacher. I want to be able to teach. I can say being a teacher is not easy. I know from the start. I got to endure through. Is really a training ground for me. So that I can move on from there. I hope to teach the older age group children soon. For the moment, I just got avail myself and be willing to do whatever the teachers want me to do. Be submissive! Hehe. Pastor AR Bernard once preached before that ability will grow to the level of your dreams. The ability increases when you use it. Also with ability comes responsibility and it attracts opportunity too. I pray that God will increase the ability in it and enlarge my capacity to contain more things. I got to be even stronger than before! God, mould me and change me! Let me be the best teacher that I can be! I might be starting small today, I will be successful one day in Jesus' name!

2007-07-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

Praise the Lord! I got a Job! Woohoo! I am starting work on monday.
Thank God for favor of man! Thank God for my children church IC for
recommending. She even accompany me down for the interview as she
was attached to the school before. She went to find some colleagues
and chat while I having interview. Hehe. She is another great example
that I should follow. She has a business and she need to manage her
family, ministry and also the attachment a few months back. She shared
with me a lot of her experiences and how I should learn and do. I am
so happy and excited! Thank God. Everything is in his plan. Before I went
for interview, my heart is anxious cause I am afraid I can't get
cause I am not trained and do not have a certificate or diploma in this
area. I prayed and I read a book. And God showed me this sentence that
touched my heart and encourage me to go on trusting Him.
"With Him at the lead, I am destined to succeed!"
I keep on meditating on it. And I got the peace and joy of the Lord,
confirming that I will have the job before I got it!
And this morning before I went out for interview, I am touched that for the
first time my mum encourage me saying whatever things I do, do it with
confident! Yea! Thank God for showing me the way! Thank God I find the way!
I be teaching in a childcare centre for toddlers at Jalan Behagia (Balestier).
It is near my place. Hee. I will PRESS IN and LEARN as much things as I can
in this period of time! Pray for me! I am starting out and preparing for
my dream! Opening a pre-school centre one day! Send all your kids to my school
10 years later. okie friends? Haha. =)

Emmanuel, Emmanuel (God is with me)
Abba Father never let me go!

2007-07-05T01:53:00.000+08:00

REST AND KEEP WALKING

Quote - 'If the axe is dull, and one does not sharpen the edge, then he must use more strength' - Ecclesiastes 10:10

Lost your 'cutting edge'?

You have to stop chopping to sharpen the axe - can't sharpen it while you're still chopping.

It will not grow sharper if you keep on using it.

It will only grow duller.

We stop cutting, we rest.

We recover our 'cutting edge.'

With less effort and more wisdom we find ourselves succeeding.

An Indian proverb says 'the bow that is always strung becomes slack.'

The best time to relax is before you have to.

If we make no time to rest, our mortal frame will force us to do so, somehow.

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

2007-07-03T15:13:00.000+08:00

Mickey Mouse Club House
I watched this with my nephew.
Cute Cute Cute! Hahaha!

2007-06-30T13:19:00.000+08:00

I manage to meet up with some more sec sch friends
yesterday. I feel like i'm back to those good old days.
Hehe. I really cherish all of my friends.
There are so much to catch up and update about
in each other lives. Thank God for everything!!

2007-06-29T13:54:00.000+08:00

On Fire

Tell you where you need to go
Tell you when you'll need to leave
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you who you need to be

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you've heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

And you're on fire
When He's near you
You're on fire
When He speaks
You're on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything You are
Give me one more chance to be... (near You)

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

When I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fire
When You speak
And I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries
these mysteries...

I'm standing on the edge of me
I'm standing on the edge

And I'm on fire
When You're near you
I'm on fire
When You speak
(Yea) I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries...

2007-06-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

This week is like a sec sch fren catching up week.
Hehe. I finally! Using this word again! Cos is really
FINALLY that I meet up with my closest fren in sec sch.
I have been delaying the meet up and she doesn't
blame me. Haha. Feel guilty though. Glad to see her!
She has really gone through a lot in her relationship.
After listening to her story, I really want to know
what has happened to all the guys out there. It does
not really matter how long you have been with someone.
Anything can happen in a relationship. She sees it all!
I am proud of her cos she make it through! She is
stronger and prettier then before! She doesn't give out
on herself. But I hope she doesn't give out hope on her
future relationship too. Keep on going! =)

2007-06-26T00:30:00.000+08:00

I am very happy! Cause I went out with my sec sch friends. finally!! Haven met them for ages. I enjoy myself alot. Though I am tight financially. I am really living each day by faith. Thank God for my friends! They treated me a meal and drinks. I feel bad though. Hehe. Feel so blessed! =) And my best friend since primary sch bought me a chip soft toy. So happy! Thank God for her! not for her, i wouldn't be in church!

2007-06-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

I went out with my lovely members for movie, dinner and pool today. It was good to get together. I have been slacking. I don't like sleeping late and waking up late. It is unhealthy. Haha. Though I spend fruitful time reading book. But I wanna do something. Get busy and not stay around do nothing. Hehe. Mum dislike me doing nothing too. Although she likes to see me at home so that I can accompany her. God, I pray for a job. I have apply some job online. Hopeful they will call me. This is really a good time for me to rest. Zhen, You should feel happy about it. Hehe. Trying to console myself. I am at my crossroad. Wandering in the wilderness. Wahaha. I really want to use my time wisely. I should go to the library more often and go jogging when free. Haha. I am trusting God to lead me on. I will walk in faith and walk in rest. In God, I found rest. Thank you Father God!

2007-06-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

Faith Booster - Pastor Phil Pringle.

Be encourage friends!

2007-06-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

I am currently reading the book by Pastor Phil Pringle-
moving in the spirit. I wanna share about the anointing.
It is the key to the power of God. The anointing is a
spiritual force accompanying the Holy Spirit that
empowers us to do God's work. The anointing is not a
person; rather it is spiritual oil. It enables us to
accomplish amazing things that are way beyond our
natural ability. The anointing releases the great gifts
of the Holy Spirit. The anointing sets us free.
God anoints us so that we will be enormously successful.

The 4 keys to receiving the anointing:
Hunger for God;
Coming to the minister of God;
Expecting the power of God;
Being open to whatever the Holy Spirit might do.

The anointing attracts people to God.
When we have a taste of the anointing we want more
of God. We find God enjoyable. The anointing calms
anxious hearts. If we embrace the anointing and
allow ourselves simply to surrender to it,
we will find tension, stress and anxiety leave.
There is rest in the anointing because it's no
longer us doing the work - it's the anointing.

I want the anointing of God to increase in my life!

I feel really loved today. I was leading the kids
in playgroup to sing a good bye song. After so long
of not singing a good bye song due to lack of time.
We got plenty of time today cause service was long.
Hehe. And when i lead them to sing the barney song.
Many kids just came to hug around me while singing
the song and a few of them eventually give me
a kiss on my face. oh they are so sweet. My love
tank was filled to the top at the moment.
Hehe. I love them so much. They are just so
adorable! Thank God for a great day today.
After playgroup, I went for lunch with my IC and
2 of the helpers. And then we head on to ikea
to do some shopping. And Joel, my IC's son is so
cute. He is super high and energetic. Haha.
He entertained us all the way. I feel so happy
spending time with them. Thank God once again
for the freedom I have. One thing I can rejoice
about is there's no work tomorrow! =)

2007-06-16T12:05:00.000+08:00

Habakkuk 2:2-4
Then the Lord answered me and said:
Write the vision
and make it plain on tablets,
that he may run who read it.
For the vision is yet for an appointed time
But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie.
Thought it tarries, wait for it;
Because it will surely come,
It will not tarry.
Behold the proud,
His soul is not upright in him;
But the just shall live by his faith

2007-06-16T11:46:00.000+08:00

My nephew Ignatius came my house yesterday.

Spend some time with him and took photos.

Take a look at my precious boy! =)

2007-06-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

Here I am. At my crossroad now. Hehe. =)

Here are the few cards given by my colleagues.

Simply touched! Good bye aia!

P.s: I din take photos with anyone.

Too busy to complete my work.

Everyone is so happy for me that I'm leaving.

I'll visit them whenever I am free!

Phoebe, Freedom!! You go gal!

2007-06-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

2 more days! work has been tiring.
trying my best to clear the work.
It will never be lighten though.
I am about to be set free! Hehe.
I am really blessed with great colleagues.
I went lunch with my supervisor and some
colleagues today. I gonna miss them.
Oh man. I am letting go finally.
hope that I wun cry on my last day. Haha.
I will miss the good times at aia.
Well, it is really time to let go
let go go go! and let God!!!
I want to be like the "Phoebe" in Romans 16:1-2.
Pastor kong always say you may be poor today,
but when you follow Jesus, you will not be poor
all your life! I will be successful!
I admire 3 woman in church.
1st is sun, 2nd is Nanz chong (owner of 1.99shop)
and 3rd is Pastor Eileen.
They are my role model. I look up to for example.
I believe God will make me the person He want me to be!

2007-06-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

You are forever in my Life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with your hand
and lead me in your righteousness
and I look to You
and I wait on You

I'll sing to you Lord
a hymn of love for your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
THROUGH IT ALL

Thank You Lord for your faithfulness in my life!
The first half of year have just gone by.
There are so much things that happened,
so many times things doesnt go the way it does,
But God is always there, and he is always the
one to turn situation around. He is faithful!
He never fails to his promises.
I thank God for the things that I go through,
so that I can be stronger and I can be bolder.
And when I am sick, He is my healer. He healed me.
Enough of being sick in the body, I will not fall
sick again. I will be in good health!
Oh man, there are just so much feeling and words
I wanted to say for my work when I am only left
with 3 days of work. After pouring out my life
at AIA for coming to 2 years. My heart is filled with
both anticipation and a little soury feel. A bit don't
bear to leave my colleagues there. But yet I got to
move on. Furthermore is the day I have been waiting
for. Haha. I have found myself to be so tight up
at work, that I do not have time for myself and my family
and friends. Finally, now I do not have to do OT
and work long hours just to complete my work and get
A LIFE! Hee. Yeah. I be free for 2 months. In the
meanwhile, I want to find a part time childcare teacher
job in the morning so that when school started in AUG,
I can go school in the afternoon as well. Haha. It is so
Wonderful and almost Perfect plan. All this is in the will of God.
Praying that I will get a childcare school nearby to teach.
With God all things are possible. I will not worry.
For God will provide. Awaiting to hear my good news!
So excited, can't wait to see what God has instored for me
in the next half a year and how he is going to use me even more.
God has made all things new!
Awaken my soul =)

2007-06-02T15:50:00.000+08:00

Sun!! She is so pretty and nice!
I say thank you to her after taking photo with her,
and she eventually look straight into my eyes and
say TAKE CARE okie to me! Haha.
I was shocked, I just say thank you! Hee.
Cos there are other people taking photo with her
and she didn't really say anything.
Standing beside her is my secondary friend! Li Shan!
My fruits after so long of sowing in her life.
So proud of her. She is in SOT this year!
Haha. I believe next year will be my turn!!

2007-06-02T15:34:00.000+08:00

This year EMERGE was even greater than last year. Except for the part to wake up super early to queue and to book for seats, everything else was good! Haha. Pastor Kong really share out from his heart that we gonna be broken before God before we can be sucessful in the things we do. And we got to be like Shamgar in the bible, to believe in the power of one. That God can just use any man or woman whose heart are willing. And we got to be like Gideon in the bible too. With little might, God can increases our strength and we are able to do all things through him. Pastor preached that Gideon's father who is an unbeliever, supported him and sup for him. This reminds me of my mum, she supported me for my studies. She stands up for me for the dreams I have. I am really very touched. God, let my mum to stand up for me and supported me. This is really the turning point of my life, before I start school, God has speak to me concerning the things I will do in future for my dreams and vision! I wanna shine for God with the little light of mine! God can use any ordinary people who are willing to lay down their life for him. It is no longer I who lives! but Christ lives in me! Whatever things Christ want me to do, I will do!

2007-05-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

The Beatitudes
Matthew 5:3-12
Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and
thirst for righteousness,
for they shall be filled.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they shall be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who persecuted
for righteousness' sake,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when they revile and
persecute you, and say all kinds of evil
against you falsely for my sake.
Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for
great is your reward in heaven, for
so they persecuted the prophets who were
before you.

One Life, I lay at your altar.
One Love, I have with you.
One word, You know I will follow.
One heart, broken to You.

God, this is my prayer to you.
Use me! Send me! Help me to serve you
without distraction! I give my heart
completely to you. You are all I need!
Thank you for showing me the way,
the truth and the life!
I love You Jesus!
Amen.

I have the peace of God in me after I make
the decision to stop working and start studying.
I believe God is going to change me and
bless my life. Breakthrough is on its way!
I going to like what I am doing!
Looking forward to start school in AUG!
Thank God for the provision!
My God is faithful!
I will always hang on to him! =)

2007-05-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite kids, Leroy! He is smiling happily with his hand-made
bunny headband! Nice! I enjoy teaching the children arts too.
It bring me great joy when I see them bringing their own art and craft home.
But it takes a lot of preparation! haha. I'm thankful Lord, for the children!

2007-05-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

Philippians 3: 12-14
Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected;
but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which
Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.
Brethen, I do not count myself to have apprehended;
but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind
and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,
I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call
of God in Christ Jesus.

Hebrews 12: 1-2
Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses,
let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which easily ensnares us,
and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,
looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith,
who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross,
despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

2007-05-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

Psalm 27:10
The Lord is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life;
of whom shall I be afraid!

TOTAL TRUST IN YOU, LORD!

Counting down to my last day at AIA!
13 June, Wed!
Freedom! Breakthrough! Dreams!

2007-05-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

My beloved nephew IgNaTiUs TaN!! =)

2007-05-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

2 Samuel 22:2-7:
2 He said:
"The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
3 my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield and the horn of my salvation.
He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior—
from violent men you save me.

4 I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
and I am saved from my enemies.

5 "The waves of death swirled about me;
the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.

6 The cords of the grave coiled around me;
the snares of death confronted me.

7 In my distress I called to the LORD;
I called out to my God.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came to his ears.

Zhen:
When I am tired, He substains me.
When I am weak, He strengthens me.
When I am fearful, He is with me.
When I am down, He lifts me up.
When I am faithless, He is faithful.
He will never leave me nor forsake me.

Dear God,
I really need the courage and boldness to move on.
There are so much burden. God, break that yoke in me.
Give me rest and help me to let go of everything.
God, i choose to trust in you. My future is in your hands.
God, take control and take over my life.
I am nothing without you. You are my God.
Jesus, you are my best friend. Thank you.
I know my future is going to be great
In Jesus' name.
Amen.

Dear friends,
I am tending my resignation letter on monday.
I am too stressed with the amount and demand of work.
I tried to do my best but still I find it too hard.
I want to pursue my dreams! remember? hehe.
So I have to start now by ending my job first.
I have to give one month notice.
Pls pls pls pray for me that I be able to handle it well
as I give my manager the letter on monday.
I know there's definitely gonna be colleagues who will
say me and even ask me to stay and make me feel bad.
Help me pray that I be firm and make a stand for my
decision. This is really the final decision I made
to quit. No point holding on. I got to let go of my work.
And I got to let go of all the moments I have with my
fellow colleagues. They brought so much joy and happiness
in my life. Thank God for them. Pls pray for me okie.
Thank you. I will share the good news with you again.
In the meanwhile I still looking for a suitable school
to go. God will provide me with a way, I believe!

2007-05-10T16:34:00.000+08:00

YOUR FUTURE

Quote - 'Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old.' - Isa 43:18

Preoccupation with the past prevents us from appropriating our future.

What you're focused on is where you're going.

No matter what your emotional attitude is, you'll go where you're focused.

You may hate the person you think about all the time. The hatred won't stop you going there though.

You'll go where you're focused.

If you're focussed on the past, you're going backwards.

Choose to forget the past.

Focus on the brilliant future.

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle

2007-05-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

Watch this!
Blackie's birthday!
Fan Weiqi, Wang Leehom and Wang HongEn
They celebrated for him and
They even prayed for him in Chinese!
I am so impressed to see them praying!
Leehom! They are all believer making
a difference in the entertainment industry!

2007-05-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

日日夜夜
我闭着双眼祈祷
为什么
只有我的梦想
能够让我依靠

我知道我的世界
已经变的越来越小
跑不掉逃不了

怎么面带着微笑
怎么面对着你才好
怎么眼泪都在掉

怎么嘴嘟着好严肃
这不是哭着就好

怎么烦恼在我脑袋
一直转一直绕

一直率一直撑着我
再一次祷告
帮助我

2007-05-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

Ecclesiastes 11:9-10
Rejoice, O young man, in your youth,
And let your heart cheer you in the
days of your youth;
Walk in the ways of your heart,
And in the sight of your eyes;
But know that for all these
God will bring you into judgment.
Therefore remove sorrow from your heart,
And put away evil from your flesh,
For childhood and youth are vanity.

Since the beginning of this year, things doesn't seem to be right in my life. Troubles and challenges just keep coming my way! I have been trying hard to pull myself through with the strength of God. Only in His presence then I find the courage and strength to move on in life. Sometimes little things in life can really cheer me up. Serving God wasn't easy. It takes a lot of me to sacrifice myself and time to Him. His love never fails. He has never fails me. He is faithful. He has changed me completely from inside out ever since I serve him! I thank Him for placing me in a Cg so that I can learn and love the different people in the cg! I thank Him for putting me in Playgroup so that I can use my talent and passion to teach and love the children in the Pg! I wanna shared how encouraged am I by the little children yesterday in pg. Cause usually we will spilt the children into 3 group to go through different lesson like art, games and science center. I was taking the science center and I was suppose to tell story to them using the storybook. haha. I enjoy telling story. It really need a lot of practice telling a simple story. haha. And what happen was when the other group finish their lesson, we have to shift to the other, so that they can attend all 3 center. Then there were some boys who love my story-telling, they were listening very attentively to me. They said they want another story, they do not want to change group, they wanted to hear some more. I am so touched and encouraged! So happy! hee. I aim to tell bible story someday. I am still learning! There's more to teach! Thank God for showing me the child-like faith of the children. Everytime I see them lifting up their hands to worship God, my heart melted. haha. They do not know much about Him, but they trusted in Him. I am reminded of God's everlasting love for everyone! They are so sweet and cute. Indeed children are little angel send by God. hee. Though bad things do happen, GOD can turn the bad things around for GOOD! I just forget about the things that happen in the past and look forward in God. God is a Good God! He is good all the times! All the times, He is good! PRAISE THE LORD!

2007-05-06T00:18:00.000+08:00

The vision is clear
The journery is long!
He will carries us through!
God is good!
He is and
He will always be!

2007-05-04T15:40:00.000+08:00

I am at home today! First Mc that I ever took. I am having stomach pain and too tired to go to work. I went to see a doctor with my mum and godmum(mummy). We have breakfast together. My mummy is so funny, she helps to talk to my mum. She keeps on protecting me and helping to say good things about me wanted to go study private and going church to study. She really good at convincing her. Cause I tried but my mum keep nagging and nagging. Mummy is so understanding and persistance. As she was talking to my mum, i feel like God saying: I am sending you an angel and is preparing the way for your future! I can see it coming to past as i picture it in my mind! haha. To get assurance from my mum is so important. She is the most important person in my life! I love her! I doesn't want to see her worrying for me. Yeah. After the long conversation, my mum is convinced of me going to study and she is willing to help me pay for my school fees. Thank God for mummy and for the chance to talk to her today. Cause I seldom see her often! God works through different people in my life. I really really can't wait to go to school. I miss studying. I want to fulfill my dream and vision. I am serious in doing it! I got to be a teacher. That is my childhood ambition. I want to be a kindergarten teacher. hehe. I want to like what I am doing. I have a great passion for little children. I simply love them. I want to do the works of God. He has given me this gift to minister to the kids. I want to use it and not keep it. My life will be more interesting and exciting, as I see myself serving God and his kingdom for the little ones. God, I lay down my life for you. Let me be a blessing to all, I prayed!

2007-05-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

Christian . Z (Pastor Aries's son)
Finally have a nice pic taken with him!!

2007-04-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

So what can I say
What can I do
to offer this heart O God
completely to You!

I stand with arm high
and heart-abandoned
in awe the one who gave it all

I stand my soul Lord
to you surrender
all I am is yours

2007-04-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

Psalm 34:17-18
The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles,
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

I went for a last minute prayer meeting after my children church today. Though I went alone, I expect God to touch me in a great way. The prayer meeting was called to pray for SUN. And I can say it was super good! Pastor Eileen lead the prayer meeting! She can really bring us to heaven and back on earth. While praying and worshipping God. I can see a glimpse of Jesus opening the door of the conference room and walk straight into our midst. His presence is so strongly felt. Our prayers are so powerful that we pull down His presence. Even as we pray for Sun, we are reminded of the good works that she has done. She is really the missonary that we send out as a church. I am really proud of her achievement. She does not only sing and perform, she touches lives around her in the media industry and she helps the poor student in china to build school. One day, I want to go to her school and teach the little ones. Hehe. I just feel so revive in my spirit. God have show me a great vision. After the prayer meeting, I went to office. I was alone again. I feel kinda lonely but I know God is with me! I worked for 3 hours, trying to clear up some bad locks but I only finish 5% of the work. haha. The coming week will be better. God is with me, I do not need to fear! P.s: see the photo - a smiley face drawn on my desk and this is the 2nd one I found, still wondering who draws it! The person really want to bring joy into my life by drawing the smiley face. Wahaha.

2007-04-28T11:22:00.000+08:00

Psalm 119: 137-176
Let Your hand become my help,
For I have chosen Your precepts,
I long for your salvation, O Lord,
And your law is my delight.
Let my soul live, and it shall praise You;
And let Your judgments help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep;
Seek Your servant,
For I do not forget Your commandments.

I feel so burden by my work, that I lose focus in my life! I got to get back my passion for God and really pursuit after my dream and desire in life! 2007 have not been a good year for me since the start! Everything just don't go the way I want it to be. Facing so so many challenges. I lose my sight and vision! I do not see where I am going! But now I make a decision to plan and stick closely to it, so that I will not go astray again! Let God's hand become my help! The prove of my desire is in my pursuit! Indeed my pursuit will determines how desperate am I to let my desire coming past! Time is so important! I got to understand my time and season! Perhaps God let me go through so much in the beginning of this year, so that He can mould and change my character and prepare me for the future! Maturity does not come with age but its come with the ability to accept responsibility! I learnt and I move forward step by step and day by day! God is watching over me! I better write down my dream and desire so that whatever is written and as I confess it by FAITH, it will come to pass! Dream no.1: 'Go' for mission trip to Taiwan in June or July! Dream no.2: Enrol into Learning capital (pre-school teaching) in November! Dream no.3: Get attached in December! (God knows, I want an older and spiritually mature bf, also someone who is muscially inclined) =) I really pray hard that God will give me the provision as I see this vision! Nothing is impossible with God! I have to let go of the things that I hold on to and move on! It's hard but I believe God is the strength of my heart! I can do it!

2007-04-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

Enlarge the place of your tent.' - Isaiah 54
As we get larger, we must get larger.
It's impossible to run a large organisation like a small one.
Bigger groups attract bigger people.
We have to become bigger people to handle bigger people.
Enlargement means - I get more generous;
I widen my acceptance of others; I'm more merciful;
I plan bigger, longer, grander plans; I stretch!
I cope with more.
I have more patience, greater love, stronger joy, firmer purpose.
I enlarge!

I need the strength, grace and wisdom from God! I can't do it without God. It is really tiring to go through each day without realizing what you have done significantly. My vision for now is that I want to make a impact in at least one person's life everyday! Touching life with my little small act! As I serve the purpose of others, I believe I will be able to gain more myself. Life can be beautiful! I want to have all the time in the world to spend with all my friends and loved one! I haven't been meeting up my old friends. I miss them so much. I also want to spend more time with my family. They are so dear to me. I really pray that I can manage my time well and use it wisely!

2007-04-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

~I just desire to have the simplicity in my heart that is in Christ in the midst of all busiest! This week have been so challenging for me. After the great weekend, I am back to do the purpose of God in the marketplace. I wanted to do so much more for God in the lives of other. Live to make a difference in others. But I just lose heart to do so cause of the overflowing work that is waiting for me to complete. Plus those agents keep on calling me and I making some mistakes. So stressed up. I want to be focus and really concentrate on the things i do so as to do it right. I gonna be more sharp and not blur. Haha. It's a great learning experience I could say. Though I have thoughts of giving out. I know I can't. I have to hang on there and depend on the strength from God to pull it through. God knows what I am going through! I will shine forth like a star! Indeed in everything, there is a time and season to it! Thank God for everything. I can do it by God and myself. I will be strong! Every little thing gonna be alrite~

2007-04-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

Over the mountains and the sea
your river runs with love for me
and I will open up my heart
and let the healer set me free
I'm happy to be in the truth
andI will daily lift my hands

I will always sing of when your love came down
I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever
I could sing of your love forever

Oh I feel like dancing
It's foolishness I know
but when the world has seen the light
They will dance with joy
like we are dancing now

Dear God,
I just want to dwell in your presence forever,
I look to You for my source of strength,
You are my hiding place, my shelter, my comfort.
I am living for You alone. Come and take control.
Have your way in me Lord! I do not know how.
But You will lead me, for You are my shepherd.
Thank you Jesus!
Amen.

2007-04-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

Deuteronomy 4:29-31
But from there you will seek the Lord your God, and you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul. When you are in distress, and all these things come upon you in the latter days, when you turn to the Lord your God and obey His voice (for the Lord your God is a merciful God), He will not forsake the covenant of your fathers which He swored to them.

Dear God,
I want to see you face to face.
I want to be by your side.
I want to hear from you.
Lead me and teach me!
strengthen me and substain me!
Show me your way, Lord!
You are glorious and wonderful!
Thank You Jesus for your saving grace!
Amen.