life's journey

In loving memory of Hazel

My wonderful Friend from 1997 to 2008
we known each other since sec 1.
we were in different class from sec 2 onwards.
but we still meet each other after school.
we used to hang around Junction 8, amk.
She was a beautiful and loving friend.
we used to call each other often, write letters,
make cards for one another.
she used to come to city harvest church for one year.
even after we graduated from secondary school,
we still keep in touch, though we are busy with our stuff.
She was my best shopping kaki, chatting and neoprint buddy!
we always go shopping together. She often give me tips on
beauty products and we even went to same hair salon.
from top to tail. we shared alot of common topic.
last year my birthday, she even went to the extend
to bake cupcakes for me! i'm so touched!
Many many thoughts just came into my mind!
I know I can't probably do all the things together with her again!
Given the 2 appointments that we are supposed to have!
It will never happened ever on earth. But I believe I can meet her in Heaven!

I hope to release my feelings by blogging!
I can't take it any longer. I am trying to be strong!
I might not be having any tears but my heart is still tearing!

My heart hurts when I can't meet Hazel for our last shopping on 8 June,sunday!
My heart hurts when We can't go for Taiwan as planned! She saved and planned alot!
My heart hurts when I see her in ICU fighting with virus!
My heart hurts when I can't do anything for her except praying for a miracle!
My heart hurts when I see her mum breaking down and I can only cry with her!
My heart hurts when I can't hear her voice and see her opening up her eyes!
My heart hurts when I was there in the hospital seeing her last moment!
My heart hurts when I see the virus attacking her whole body in a critical condition.
My heart hurts when I sms her on wed night 4 June, and she replied should be ok, 2.30pm at orchard rite.
My heart hurts when she didn't tell me she is having a fever for few days.
My heart hurts when the doctor didn't know the cause of her death.
My heart hurts when she didn't even know that she is leaving this world.
My heart hurts when I didn't arranged to meet up with her much earlier.
As she already sms me on 16 may, telling me that she had finished her exam, and we could meet up! and I told her if i can meet her after my exam which is 3 June. and we agreed on mtg on 8 June!
My heart hurts when our appointment on 8 June, turned out to be her funeral wake!
My heart hurts when I send her off on her last journey in life!
My heart hurts when I think about her getting her degree and entering into workforce soon.
My heart hurts when I go orchard, remember the places we always go.
My heart hurts when I remember the things we did, the words she said.
My heart hurts when I see the photos i took with her.
My heart hurts when I think about the things that we could not do in future, like seeing each other getting married and having children!
My heart hurts deep deep deep! I'm broken!
I'm allowing God to heal my heart!

Just within a few days, I lost a great and dearly friend!
Life is so fragile, so unpredictable!
Friends, really! We got to live our life with no regret!
Seizing every moments of our life!
Living our life to its fullest!

Dear God,
I lift up Hazel in your hands!
I trust that Jesus will take good care of her!
One day, I will meet her in Heaven and she will
bring me around Heaven!
Thank you for Hazel!
God,I pray for your strength, peace and comfort to
come upon Hazel's mum, dad and bro!
Lord, watch over them in this season!
And God use me to be a pillar for Hazel's mum!
I love you God!
In Jesus' Name
Amen

Today marks another journey of my ministry this year.
[Jan]-lunch with Pastor Eileen and a talk with my svc Ic(Jo-ann).
[Feb]-overnight prayer mtg with Pastor Eileen.
[Mar]-acting svc IC at expo for a week and JW for 2weeks.
[Apr]-dinner with Children Church Zone supervisor(Joanna and Gloria], leading art&craft discussion with teachers.
[May]-acting svc IC at expo for a week, prayer meeting with Joanna.
This is only the beginning! I'm really stir to do so much more for God. Thank God today Jw svc was good! I love it when the kids sing along with me during praise and worship. I can really sense the atmosphere there in the room. As for the set up, I still prefer expo. I love to have the feeling of many kids together. Watching them grow, really touches my heart. Seeing the kids looking upon me while i tell bible story, really give me the confidence. Indeed it is God who gave the confident. After the playgroup svc, i rush down to expo to have prayer mtg with my children church zone supervisor, joanna and the other ICs and some potential leader. She uses to be my Ic. I was really stir during the mtg as she get us to share about the playgroup's future. Really challenged. I love my ministry. I love the kids more. I love God even more. I believe God will gives us the strategy to work on the svc and the kids and also the parents. my ex cg leader ever told me that if u want to be with eagle, u should hang around with the eagles and not with the turkeys. today i see myself as one of the eagle. while i am slowing stepping into leadership position. i look forward to more session with the eagles so as to soar like them. Look forward to the youth camp next week. I feel pity that i can only make it for the last night. dear
E444, I'm with you in the spirit! especially jovan, really proud of you! God changed your life around. I never imagined that! God is awesome! =p

I was pretty busy with my project works and assignments for the past few weeks. Today, I have an opportunity to visit my coursemate's centre at Sembawang Presbyterian Church. wow i can say that the centre's environment is so cool and nice. i like! i hope my dream future centre will be something like that. hee. exciting! May is a month that I feel kinda emotional. A lot of separation had and is going to take place in my life. As two of the babies eventually withdraw from our centre and one of my colleague is resigning. i work very closely with her since i first joined the centre. also the other colleague who is my best buddy is been transfered to the other group. so i hardly have chance to talk to her. She is my colleague cum children church friend. I really thank God for her. I feel very much attached to her since the beginning of this year. as we see each other everyday from monday to sunday. can you believe that. hee. and lastly, my real brother is going to move out of our house, as he gotten his new house with his gf. i gotta miss all this people so so much. especially my bro, for all the IT stuff at home, SCV and his car! haha. this is a season that i got to really let go and put my total trust in God! i believe as transition takes place in my life, God will still be here for me and his love is unfailing! I will be stronger! I still remember last year this date, I tender my resignation letter at AIA. It's not an easy decision but i'm glad i make the decision. I am thankful to God for where I am right now! working with the little babies, serving God with my talents and passion and studying a course of my interest, though is tough. BUT GOD is the strength of my heart and portion forever! =)

One world One Dream
Composed by Wang Lee Hom
For Olympic Beijing 2008

Really nice & inspirational!
enjoy! =)

Communication is powerful!

Leadership files by Pastor Phil Pringle
People in a dark room want to turn the light on.
They want to see where they can walk.
Communication in an organisation turns the light on for everyone.
People do not function well in the dark.
Absence of communication leaves people in the dark.
Fear, distrust, suspicion, gossip and rumour all fester in this dark.
Trust, faith and security make an organisation healthy.
Communicate with people all the time.
Arrange systems of communications.
Use all the technology available to maintain open lines.
Any military strategist will tell you that an army without communications is a defeated army.
Turn the light on in your families, your workplace, your networks.
Communicate!

I just wanna say that we served an amazing God. Back to expo to serve today! The numbers of kids that turned up really blow us off! 78 kids! Breaking record ever for sunday playgroup. usually we have the most was 65. With only 5 teachers around today, WE are really depending on the power of God that is working within us. His supernatural strength and grace covers us all. Thank God there's isn't any accident or anything that is happening. But I sort of lost focus as I am too overwhelmed with the numbers of kids coming in and the numbers of auntie and parents around to make our room really crowded. Thank God I learnt. The one thing that I really need to constantly remind myself is I am raising up as a service IC, I got to take ownership and be aware of everything that is happening. Though the responsibility is great, i pray that I am able to contain it in my spirit. yet I do not want to serve to a point that I will be too tired to do anythings else. I want to continue to have the passion for God and for kids. I looked forward for the many more exciting times that God will lead me in my ministry and my walk with him. I just started a new term again, many projects to do. I must really know how to manage my time. Pastor Tan preached that time management is the management of event. Gotta manage my events well. And also to wake up early to pray and plan. I wanna place my day into the hand of God! my walk with God will get even more glorious! =p